January 13, 2008

 ♥ Happy Belated New Year? lol

Happy New Year Everyone.

I can't believe it is already January. I'm already failing my new years resolution goals, lol. I'll work on them. My goals this year is:

  • Work out 3 times a week
  • Write down things to do list [so my brains won't overfry]
  • Read my bible and go to church
  • Study more [......]
  • Be more positive [yeah right]
  • Hang out with friends more [yeah riiight...]
  • Get a HEALTH INSURANCE

    • Working out was going well during the first month, but again I slacked off. Today will be a week and three days since I last visited.

    I haven't bought a planner yet, but I keep finding myself wanting to write things down because I find I have too many things to do on my head.

    I've been reading my bible! I am almost done with Exodus, like two pages behind Leviticus. As for church, I keep waking up too late. I think I need to ask my manager not to give me a closing duty. If I could leave at 11, I can shower at the spa. And once I shower, I oddly go to sleep earlier...I feel more clean and relaxed.

    Lets see...yap i'm still procastinating as always. But I did manage to keep in track this time. I'm still learning how the school system works.

    Listening to spirit 105.3 makes me feel happier at times. Sometimes it has no effect at all but usually it does. I wrote this really bitter blog about my life yesturday with a lot of cuss words...I didn't have time to put it up and glad I didn't. Because after work I was listening to spirit radio and a woman said:

       Don't focus on the problems that the other person has or is doing wrong, focus on what your problem is or what you are doing wrong and fix them so that your personality grows and improves. Otherwise, you will be stuck in the same situation and there is no space to change.

       "Live, love, forgive, and rejoice in the lord?" [I forgot what her exact words were, but I thought they were pretty powerful]

    What the woman said just kind of vanished my anger at the moment. Isn't it true though? Don't most of us, when were mad at someone, or are annoid with someone, you only think about what their doing wrong, or what their problems are. We don't usually observe our own negative reactions and thoughts. So next time, try to observe how you react to the person your having problems with and really think if that person is the problem...or if it is yourself.

    I feel happier if I hang out with my friends more. I can really see a big development in my social skills and I feel more comfortable in the outside world. I just feel more satisfied. I used to be awkward eating out with different people, I never did that before, but last summer I did it more often, and its really fun! When summer comes, I'm going to go to different places and waste my money.

    and...I just need a health insurance for a various reasons.

    And for this winter quarter classes I'm taking, 3-D design, nutrition, and anatomy and physiology classes.

    Thats it! It is now 11:46 and I'm going to go and work out. I've been trying to raise my heart rate up...last time I could run for 17 minutes running at 5.4? or 5.2? mph. Lol I know its not much, but to me that was big goal!...

    I'm probably back down to 10 min, at 5.2 mph...- -''

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